i was literally slumped over the stove tonight. the warmth from the lasagna baking in the oven combined with my gloomy mood and our flat top range provided the perfect resting spot where i could wait for dinner to be ready. i must have scared my 5-year old daughter because she tip-toed in the kitchen to tell me she could spell "happy" and very softly patted my hip.
"what's wrong, momma?" she whispered in a hushed tone.
i smiled. gosh my kids are so intuitive and thoughtful. i love them so much.
"nothing baby. momma's just resting."
and i was. on our flat top range, warm from baked lasagna. there was fog over the valley when i pulled in tonight. fog plus a fine mist of moist air and a gray sky, well that just equals doom and gloom. i was also reminded this was the day. the day my grandmother passed away 16 years ago. i was only 13. my oldest sister and brother were closest to her, but she is still missed. i wonder if my mom has remembered....
all of this joined with a text from one of my best friends telling me she wished i could rub her hair and tell her everything is okay and personal challenges that i have been dealing with this week....WOW..a gloomy evening indeed, especially in my heart. thankfully i'm a bouncer. i'll bounce back. all i need is some SUNSHINE, dear GOD please give me some sunshine...just a ray. just one little ray of light.....
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